Tuesday, May 27, 2014
I can't even begin to express how rewarding it is to make such a huge lifestyle change. It's not only about how your body changes on the outside but the journey of self discovery from within is what makes all the struggles and moments when you're doubting yourself all worth it. I started this journey with so much disgust with myself that I refused to even leave my house and when I did I plastered this fake smile on my face pretending I loved who I was when really I hated who I let myself become. I always feared running into someone I knew and never made eye contact with anyone because I didn't want to take the risk of actually engaging in a conversation with anyone! The weight of self hate I carried around with me was more than the actual weight itself. I was unhappy, and it got to the point where it ruined every single relationship I was in. My marriage, friendships, and the relationships a mother is supposed to have with her children. I didn't want to be touched or seen by my husband, I didn't want to go out and do shit with my friends, and even if I wanted to...which I didn't...be active with my boys. I didn't have the desire or energy to do anything.
Thinking back to how I lived my life day in day out I truly tell myself "how the fuck did you let that happen!?" and even now I can't really answer that question besides saying I just lost myself somewhere along the way of having children, getting married and being confused on what my role was for each of those things.
Today...I am stronger, healthier, and more confident than I have ever been in my life.
You know they say your 30's are the best years of your life and I was so terrified of turning 30 thinking my life was going to suck major balls and well I'm almost 31 and let me tell you my first year in my 30's has really been the best part of my life.
A person doesn't seen themselves as they're supposed to be until they finally reach that point in their life. Everyday is a choice to kick ass and stay focused and stay on track. It isn't easy by any means, but trust me it's all worth it.
Every aspect of my life has changed and I'm the happiest me I can be. I'm a better wife and Mother and it's from me choosing to be change my life starting with ME.
Don't wish this can be you, because it can be you!
Get off your ass and start moving, that's the first step.
I believe in you!
Monday, May 19, 2014
Day 1 bitches!
Did my weigh-in this morning and sure enough I gained about 6 pounds back since I let my inner fatty consume me. Not too happy with myself but that's more motivation for me to regain focus and remember my "why" I have no one to blame but myself but today is a new fucking day of kicking ass!
Started my detox and it really doesn't taste that bad. So it won't be difficult to get this in the next 7 days!
I'm also doing 2 a days! Got my morning workout in and will do my 2nd sweat session tonight! Not bad of a burn, right!
This morning was 1001 steps on my ancient stepper but hell it works! Stoked I reached my goal on that bitch, shit was hard lol. Did 2.5 miles and some light lifting.
Tonight will be abs with my Mr. And I'll probably cry cause his circuits are no joke! I ain't even gonna lie, I'm scared lol.
Happy Monday bitches! Hope you guys got your sweat on!
Sunday, May 18, 2014
I have to confess I've gotten off track with everything. Pretty fucking disappointed in myself for just being a lazy bitch. I haven't worked out and I've been eating like shit. And because of my own shitty choices I've gained weight back!
No excuses, no it happens to everyone, no we all get in a rut and no bullshit lines.
I was just lazy and didn't want to get my ass out of bed to sweat.
That's all changing and I want to feel good again. Huge difference in my mood and overall energy this month.
I've decided to kick my ass back into gear starting with a 7 day detox. Will be back to working out tomorrow morning and just going to bust ass!
I know I've let myself down and I hope I didn't let anyone else down either.
Tomorrow is a new day! I'll do a weigh in tomorrow morning and if anyone wants to join me let me know!
Im doing Jillan's 7 day detox!
You can find everything at your local grocery store!
-60ozs of Distilled Water: Distilled water is purified off all contaminants. We all need that good shit, right?
-1Tbs of Pure Cranberry Juice: Cranberry juice contains powerful antioxidants that help to prevent and repair free radicals going down in your body. Also loaded with organic acids which have an emulsifying effect on fat deposits in our body! Fat killer!
Dandelion Root Extract Herbal Tea: Helps you pee out your insides pretty much lol, stops the body from retaining water which leads to weight loss bitches!
2tbs of Lemon Juice: Lemons are just the shit and have a strong antibacterial, antiviral, and immune boosters! Helps aids digestion and cleans your liver!
This is it hookers! I'm ready and lighting that fire under my ass!